all i can think about lately....

BABIES, BABIES, BABIES... I feel like they are everywhere! Which isn't a bad thing except for the fact that I want one! Here's the thing everyone just keeps saying "well then just have one" for some reason it just doesn't seem that easy to me. I want one so bad and everyday I think (well OBSESS) about it.. ways we could tell our parents, baby names, what being prego will be like, what waking up in the middle of the night mulitple times will do for my sanity, what outfits and accessories I think are cute for babies, how I could decorate a nursery, the list goes on and on about what I OBSESS about daily. The only thing is I'm not pregnant and we weren't planning on trying until next summer. I know, I know "so don't wait." Again it just doesn't seem that easy to me. When I truly stop to think if Gary just said "alright let's not wait" it freaks me right out! I need him to keep telling me "It will come." "In a little bit" "Next year babe" when I say "I want a baby." And really next summer is in like 7 months, which in the perspective of things is just not that far away, but in my world IT'S FOREVER!!! Will next summer ever come? I think not! Anyway I just need help friends. Does anyone have any advice on how to help someone who is craving a baby? And please don't give me the "just have one" that doesn't help. That just makes it worse. I swear you people are going to talk me right into doing it. And if your advice is baby sit, I've tried that with the most energized 18 month old on the face of the earth or sub in nursery guess what folks we ARE the nursery leaders, and I think that is making things worse too. I hang out with these cute little ones every sunday and the cute things they say kill me. (like this sunday Gary gave one of our little girls and animal cookie and she picked it up examied it and showed it to him and said "Bison!" SO CUTE!!! I about died laughing) I just need advice on how to occupy my mind for 7 months, then I can think about it all I want. So I will end this novel now. I just feel like I have to get this baby hunger off my chest for some reason it helps to tell people about my new obsession!